The Mexican was out of town for a little while last week, so I utilized my time and got my ass into work. Did pretty well, guess it's like riding a bike.
Three of my most recent exes (the ex, colorado guy, and ga tech kid) have all contacted me within the last two weeks. All out of nowhere. I don't talk to them ever, and I'm not even friends with them on facebook, yet I got three emails (and a phone call, and an appearance at my work) from them all within a week and a half of eachother. Guess it's the holiday season?
Welp, going to try and start updating a little more often. I'm working thanksgiving, so hopeful something eventful will happen
Showing posts with label ga tech kid. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ga tech kid. Show all posts
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
A good month
So last night broke my awesome streak. I've made over $700 50% of all the nights I've woked this month. Totals for the month: $160, $80, $870, $730, $760, $400, $450, $800, $700, $300. Man, those first two nights really fucked me over. Unfortunately last night was a $300 night. Plus, I needed safe-ride (that thing where they drive your car home for you), which put me out an additional $40. I'm working tonight, so hopefully I won't dip under the 50% line.
I have a new customer who I can tell is going to become obsessed with me. He's actually not too bad, and pays really well, so I hope we can just keep things as they are, and he doesn't start trying to date me.
My bouncer on the other hand...He came in on saturday (as a customer) and tipped me $200 on stage. Both hundred dollar bills. I was complaining to him the other night about guys that make it rain, because while having all that money is nice, it's a pain in the ass to stack and face it. I mentioned how I wished they could just give me a few $100s instead. Of course once I went over to talk to him he started bugging me about going on another date with him. I may or may not have agreed to a date next thursday. God, I think I just let the bouncer 'buy' me.
Ga tech kid still calls and texts a few times a week, and I still ignore him (for the most part).
I love how the less you want someone, the more they want you. Well, except when I'm on the wanting end of that deal.
I have a new customer who I can tell is going to become obsessed with me. He's actually not too bad, and pays really well, so I hope we can just keep things as they are, and he doesn't start trying to date me.
My bouncer on the other hand...He came in on saturday (as a customer) and tipped me $200 on stage. Both hundred dollar bills. I was complaining to him the other night about guys that make it rain, because while having all that money is nice, it's a pain in the ass to stack and face it. I mentioned how I wished they could just give me a few $100s instead. Of course once I went over to talk to him he started bugging me about going on another date with him. I may or may not have agreed to a date next thursday. God, I think I just let the bouncer 'buy' me.
Ga tech kid still calls and texts a few times a week, and I still ignore him (for the most part).
I love how the less you want someone, the more they want you. Well, except when I'm on the wanting end of that deal.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Done and done
I finally ended things with ga tech kid.
We met up on Friday after my classes (and tanning). We were eating lunch at some Mexican restaurant and I brought up a text he had sent me a few days ago consisting of two words; “I’m done”.
“What was with that ‘I’m done’ text the other day-was that meant for me?”
“Uhh, I was stuck in traffic and feeling frustrated with our situation…”
“What do you mean?”
“I feel like you aren’t making any effort to be with me. It’s like you don’t even like me.”
“Hah! I’ve heard that before…” “I didn’t think we were really doing anything serious.”
“Well I’m starting to develop a lot of feelings for you and I care about you a lot.” ”I think this relationship could be a long-term thing…Of course I have a lot of issues with what you do for a living, and there’s a lot of stuff I have to block out, but you have all the qualities I look for in a partner.”
The conversation went on for a little while longer. I brought up distance and our schedules as factors, but I honestly know none of these things are the problem. I also knew at this point that I needed to end things.
I told him to call me after work.
Went out to the bars with my friends as usual, and got the call around 10:30. I told him to meet me at the bar, where we stayed until closing. After dragging one of my very drunk friends to her room, we started talking in my friend’s kitchen.
I don’t feel like typing out the whole conversation, but it basically boiled down to me telling him that I didn’t feel like things were working and that the chemistry just wasn’t there.
I was a bit brutal about the entire thing, peppering our conversation with jabs about his economic situation, shitty living situation and lack of sense of humor, and looking back I wish I hadn’t mentioned those things. Not because they aren’t true-they are-but because they aren’t the real reasons I didn’t want to be with him. When it came down to it, the attraction (physical and mental) just wasn’t there, and without that how can there be a relationship?
Of course he was upset after this. He mentioned that he felt like he could really be himself around me and that he had become quite attached to me, but at this point I just didn’t care. It’s not fair to be in a relationship with someone who doesn’t care about you.
He drove himself home, as did I.
I honestly feel so much better now that I got that over with.
In other news, I’m buying a tent so my friends and I can go camping, because that will be hilarious.
We met up on Friday after my classes (and tanning). We were eating lunch at some Mexican restaurant and I brought up a text he had sent me a few days ago consisting of two words; “I’m done”.
“What was with that ‘I’m done’ text the other day-was that meant for me?”
“Uhh, I was stuck in traffic and feeling frustrated with our situation…”
“What do you mean?”
“I feel like you aren’t making any effort to be with me. It’s like you don’t even like me.”
“Hah! I’ve heard that before…” “I didn’t think we were really doing anything serious.”
“Well I’m starting to develop a lot of feelings for you and I care about you a lot.” ”I think this relationship could be a long-term thing…Of course I have a lot of issues with what you do for a living, and there’s a lot of stuff I have to block out, but you have all the qualities I look for in a partner.”
The conversation went on for a little while longer. I brought up distance and our schedules as factors, but I honestly know none of these things are the problem. I also knew at this point that I needed to end things.
I told him to call me after work.
Went out to the bars with my friends as usual, and got the call around 10:30. I told him to meet me at the bar, where we stayed until closing. After dragging one of my very drunk friends to her room, we started talking in my friend’s kitchen.
I don’t feel like typing out the whole conversation, but it basically boiled down to me telling him that I didn’t feel like things were working and that the chemistry just wasn’t there.
I was a bit brutal about the entire thing, peppering our conversation with jabs about his economic situation, shitty living situation and lack of sense of humor, and looking back I wish I hadn’t mentioned those things. Not because they aren’t true-they are-but because they aren’t the real reasons I didn’t want to be with him. When it came down to it, the attraction (physical and mental) just wasn’t there, and without that how can there be a relationship?
Of course he was upset after this. He mentioned that he felt like he could really be himself around me and that he had become quite attached to me, but at this point I just didn’t care. It’s not fair to be in a relationship with someone who doesn’t care about you.
He drove himself home, as did I.
I honestly feel so much better now that I got that over with.
In other news, I’m buying a tent so my friends and I can go camping, because that will be hilarious.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Just one more chance
Work has been…uneventful.
Last night I worked during ‘the bouncer’s’ shift, and he still seems to be pursuing me, even after I told him I was dating someone and that I didn’t feel like dating fellow employees was a good idea.
“Call me”
“Call you what?” (laughing nervously).
“Just give me one more date.”
“Have you been working out? You look really jacked.”
I’m holding strong. Sometimes I have trouble being firm and saying no; especially when it comes to relationships and dating.
Last night was slow. I drank a lot early in the night, but my tolerance is back up because I’ve been drinking pretty heavily lately.
I’m going in tonight, even though I have class tomorrow…I not only made an A on my last test, I made the highest grade in the class!
Still haven’t cut the cord with ga tech kid. He even mentioned introducing me to some of his family members this weekend…Again, apparently I have issues saying no and being truthful about what I want.
I still need a new keyboard-ugh.
Last night I worked during ‘the bouncer’s’ shift, and he still seems to be pursuing me, even after I told him I was dating someone and that I didn’t feel like dating fellow employees was a good idea.
“Call me”
“Call you what?” (laughing nervously).
“Just give me one more date.”
“Have you been working out? You look really jacked.”
I’m holding strong. Sometimes I have trouble being firm and saying no; especially when it comes to relationships and dating.
Last night was slow. I drank a lot early in the night, but my tolerance is back up because I’ve been drinking pretty heavily lately.
I’m going in tonight, even though I have class tomorrow…I not only made an A on my last test, I made the highest grade in the class!
Still haven’t cut the cord with ga tech kid. He even mentioned introducing me to some of his family members this weekend…Again, apparently I have issues saying no and being truthful about what I want.
I still need a new keyboard-ugh.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
not much going on
December was a lazy month for me. I'm getting back on top of shit now that it's January.
New Year's eve was alright. Like always my original plans fell through with my 'best' friend, so I spent the evening with my summer roommates and ga tech kid.
Because I haven't been working, I also haven't been drinking. I'm not sure if this has had any effect on me, as it still took a lot of alcohol for me to get drunk last night. I also did a bit of coke with ga tech kid and this other guy. Way to start off the new year.
I find myself not really liking ga tech kid. I mean, I like the company, but the person who provides it is interchangeable. I always feel like I'm acting when I'm around others. Especially men. I start to play this role-a very specific role-that isn't really me. I guess it is me, since I act that way in those moments, but it's not...genuine. I can't even really explain it.
I also feel like I might be a pathological cheater when it comes to relationships. It's not that I have a particularly high sex drive, or am attracted to many people, but as soon as someone I'm dating wants to be exclusive, I get the urge to cheat. Just to do it. I dunno.
I'm considering trying women. Not just for sex, but dating too.
I think I'm going down to biloxi with some friends in the near future so that will be a blast.
New Year's eve was alright. Like always my original plans fell through with my 'best' friend, so I spent the evening with my summer roommates and ga tech kid.
Because I haven't been working, I also haven't been drinking. I'm not sure if this has had any effect on me, as it still took a lot of alcohol for me to get drunk last night. I also did a bit of coke with ga tech kid and this other guy. Way to start off the new year.
I find myself not really liking ga tech kid. I mean, I like the company, but the person who provides it is interchangeable. I always feel like I'm acting when I'm around others. Especially men. I start to play this role-a very specific role-that isn't really me. I guess it is me, since I act that way in those moments, but it's not...genuine. I can't even really explain it.
I also feel like I might be a pathological cheater when it comes to relationships. It's not that I have a particularly high sex drive, or am attracted to many people, but as soon as someone I'm dating wants to be exclusive, I get the urge to cheat. Just to do it. I dunno.
I'm considering trying women. Not just for sex, but dating too.
I think I'm going down to biloxi with some friends in the near future so that will be a blast.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Never let a dude cook in your kitchen?
I worked the Thursday before Christmas. I felt kind of sick at work, mostly because I had been out drinking the night before as well as earlier that day.
I had a customer in who I spent the entire night sitting with save a few dances here and there. He only gave me $300 or so, but I was feeling too crappy to get up and work.
He's moving across the country in a few weeks. I'm somewhat relieved by this because I think he's got quite a crush on me, and he's too sweet-I don't want to hurt his feelings.
I was shaking my ass for some old guy I was dancing for and he made the comment, "It winked at me," referring to my asscheeks slapping together and then separating exposing my asshole. That's when I realized my job is kind of gross. Ha.
Ga tech kid came over last night and we made waffles with my new waffle iron. He bought me a mixing bowl for christmas, since I didn't have one for waffle making. The waffles turned out pretty delicious.
I think this kid kind of likes me. I'm not sure what to do, or how I feel about that. I guess I like him. He definitely has some qualities that the ex didn't, which I appreciate...but I still find myself missing the ex. We had a more playful (when we werent hating eachother) relationship, which I liked. I'm going to give this new guy some more time. I think he'll grow on me.
I'm driving my friend to the abortion clinic tomorrow, that will be a blast!
I had a customer in who I spent the entire night sitting with save a few dances here and there. He only gave me $300 or so, but I was feeling too crappy to get up and work.
He's moving across the country in a few weeks. I'm somewhat relieved by this because I think he's got quite a crush on me, and he's too sweet-I don't want to hurt his feelings.
I was shaking my ass for some old guy I was dancing for and he made the comment, "It winked at me," referring to my asscheeks slapping together and then separating exposing my asshole. That's when I realized my job is kind of gross. Ha.
Ga tech kid came over last night and we made waffles with my new waffle iron. He bought me a mixing bowl for christmas, since I didn't have one for waffle making. The waffles turned out pretty delicious.
I think this kid kind of likes me. I'm not sure what to do, or how I feel about that. I guess I like him. He definitely has some qualities that the ex didn't, which I appreciate...but I still find myself missing the ex. We had a more playful (when we werent hating eachother) relationship, which I liked. I'm going to give this new guy some more time. I think he'll grow on me.
I'm driving my friend to the abortion clinic tomorrow, that will be a blast!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
life without work
I haven't been working much at all this month. I think i've worked a total of 5 nights so far...
I spent the whole weekend in Atlanta.
Saturday morning I went to my friend's graduation reception/lunch thingy. I got to meet her entire family. Very traditional southern. Super religious, super friendly, somewhat racist...delicious food-making abilities. After the lunch we were all supposed to go back to her condo (all being me and her friends; family not included) and drink in preparation for the night ahead, but graduating girl freaked out and decided she wanted to spend the rest of the weekend at her parents' house so she left.
Her roommate and I decided we were going to go out regardless. Ga tech kid came along, which was useful because the bar we went to happened to be charging a cover, but since he used to work there we got in for free. He also drove and bought us libations. Once the night was over he dropped my friend off and we went back to his place, per usual.
The next morning we went and got breakfast and hung out a bit and then I decided to meet back up with my friend from the night before and watch the Falcons game at a nearby venue. We arrived at said venue at 4:30 and left around 11:00. She used to work at another restuarant with the manager there so we got a few free drinks out of that. There was also this company christmas party thing going on, which started at 9:30. I suppose the courteous thing to do would have been to move downstairs as to not interrupt the party, but we decided to make things as awkward as possible and stay.
After we get home my friend is acting a little weird. I confront her about this weirdness and she confesses to me that she is with child. wtf. Apparently the guy she's been hooking up with impregnated her, so yeah. She keeps trying to call him to inform him of this, but because he's a doucheface he isn't answering his phone. She finally decides to text him the news. Nothing like finding out you knocked some chick up through a text.
Speaking of texts, the ex texted me the other morning. I hadn't texted or called him for over 2 weeks so I guess he was due. He acts annoyed whenever I contact him, but when I go too long without contacting him, well you know. I think he may have some sort of sense that allows him to know when I'm dating someone. It seems he always starts trying to talk and hang with me once I get with someone else. He has no way of knowing these things, though...
I'm still undecided about ga tech kid at this point. He calls me a lot. Almost every day. I usually answer about 1/3 of the time. Despite this he remains stoic and lacking in affect. I can tell he's bothered by my job yet knows that he doesn't have the standing to say much about it at this point. We'll see how that pans out. I like him when I'm drunk and couldn't care less about him otherwise. Maybe this will change with time.
I spent the whole weekend in Atlanta.
Saturday morning I went to my friend's graduation reception/lunch thingy. I got to meet her entire family. Very traditional southern. Super religious, super friendly, somewhat racist...delicious food-making abilities. After the lunch we were all supposed to go back to her condo (all being me and her friends; family not included) and drink in preparation for the night ahead, but graduating girl freaked out and decided she wanted to spend the rest of the weekend at her parents' house so she left.
Her roommate and I decided we were going to go out regardless. Ga tech kid came along, which was useful because the bar we went to happened to be charging a cover, but since he used to work there we got in for free. He also drove and bought us libations. Once the night was over he dropped my friend off and we went back to his place, per usual.
The next morning we went and got breakfast and hung out a bit and then I decided to meet back up with my friend from the night before and watch the Falcons game at a nearby venue. We arrived at said venue at 4:30 and left around 11:00. She used to work at another restuarant with the manager there so we got a few free drinks out of that. There was also this company christmas party thing going on, which started at 9:30. I suppose the courteous thing to do would have been to move downstairs as to not interrupt the party, but we decided to make things as awkward as possible and stay.
After we get home my friend is acting a little weird. I confront her about this weirdness and she confesses to me that she is with child. wtf. Apparently the guy she's been hooking up with impregnated her, so yeah. She keeps trying to call him to inform him of this, but because he's a doucheface he isn't answering his phone. She finally decides to text him the news. Nothing like finding out you knocked some chick up through a text.
Speaking of texts, the ex texted me the other morning. I hadn't texted or called him for over 2 weeks so I guess he was due. He acts annoyed whenever I contact him, but when I go too long without contacting him, well you know. I think he may have some sort of sense that allows him to know when I'm dating someone. It seems he always starts trying to talk and hang with me once I get with someone else. He has no way of knowing these things, though...
I'm still undecided about ga tech kid at this point. He calls me a lot. Almost every day. I usually answer about 1/3 of the time. Despite this he remains stoic and lacking in affect. I can tell he's bothered by my job yet knows that he doesn't have the standing to say much about it at this point. We'll see how that pans out. I like him when I'm drunk and couldn't care less about him otherwise. Maybe this will change with time.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
My social life
So I've kind of been hanging out with ga tech kid for the past few weeks.
I've realized that I have a hard time hanging out with men when I'm sober. I just don't like them. Everything about them annoys me to the point of ruining my mood. Maybe I'm just conditioned from work to associate with men in an inebriated state.
So tech kid. Hung out with him this weekend and a few times last week. He's cool but I only want to see him when I'm drunk. His affect is so flat it cracks me up. He does have a sense of humor but it's pretty dry which is awesome.
Him and a friend of his met myself and a friend at a bar. When he arrived there was a group of probably 7 guys around my friend and me. Of course...we drank. And drank...and drank some more. His friend kept congratulating him and telling him 'good job', 'nice work' in regards to me and it was hilarious, if a bit awkward.
The friend seems like someone who I would have fun going out and drinking with because I got the feeling that he's a bit of an alcoholic party dude. Restaurant people usually are. Tech kid is a bit of an anomaly in that regard, doesn't seem to be a huge partier...though he does drink and go out (which is nice!).
I've been very lazy as far as work is concerned. I have months where I'm at work all the time and really motivated, and then I have months like this where I have to force myself to make it in twice a week. Meh.
A friend from out of town in coming in next week and we're (a bunch of people I know from high school) all gonna hang out and do acid. I'm excited because, believe it or not, I've never done acid. For some reason I've always been terrified of hallucinogens so I've always stayed away. Kind of funny that I'll try meth or heroin but am nervous about acid and shrooms.
It's slightly snowing out right now.
I've realized that I have a hard time hanging out with men when I'm sober. I just don't like them. Everything about them annoys me to the point of ruining my mood. Maybe I'm just conditioned from work to associate with men in an inebriated state.
So tech kid. Hung out with him this weekend and a few times last week. He's cool but I only want to see him when I'm drunk. His affect is so flat it cracks me up. He does have a sense of humor but it's pretty dry which is awesome.
Him and a friend of his met myself and a friend at a bar. When he arrived there was a group of probably 7 guys around my friend and me. Of course...we drank. And drank...and drank some more. His friend kept congratulating him and telling him 'good job', 'nice work' in regards to me and it was hilarious, if a bit awkward.
The friend seems like someone who I would have fun going out and drinking with because I got the feeling that he's a bit of an alcoholic party dude. Restaurant people usually are. Tech kid is a bit of an anomaly in that regard, doesn't seem to be a huge partier...though he does drink and go out (which is nice!).
I've been very lazy as far as work is concerned. I have months where I'm at work all the time and really motivated, and then I have months like this where I have to force myself to make it in twice a week. Meh.
A friend from out of town in coming in next week and we're (a bunch of people I know from high school) all gonna hang out and do acid. I'm excited because, believe it or not, I've never done acid. For some reason I've always been terrified of hallucinogens so I've always stayed away. Kind of funny that I'll try meth or heroin but am nervous about acid and shrooms.
It's slightly snowing out right now.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
That's why I say 'hey man nice shirt.'
Just got back from my date with the bouncer. He was cute. Younger than I'm used to, 27...He also doesn't drink or do any drugs. He's been to rehab a few times and he's been clean for 2 1/2 years, so yeah. I guess I'll hang out with him again.
A few hours before my date ga tech kid called. I have hung out with him a few times in the past two weeks and we've talked on the phone quite a bit. I don't know what to make of him. He's very...stoic. I kind of like it because it gives me the chance to be the animated one. I'm hanging out with him tomorrow night.
I don't really have any sort of feelings or chemistry with either of these guys (maybe ga tech kid a little), but I need something to pass the time. I miss the ex.
I made $1,100 at work last night which was nice. I lucked out.
I had sat with little asian man for most of the night and made about $200 off him and then he left.
A few minutes later I was called to stage two.
A nerdy looking dude came up and tipped me on stage two and I made a comment referencing his shirt. He was so thrilled that I knew the meaning behind his shirt that he tipped me a $20 on stage. After my set I went and danced for another guy who had tipped me and then returned to nerd guy. About 2 minutes after I sat down the waitress came over with a bucket and bottle of champagne in hand and asked the guy if he liked me. He responded that he kind of loved me and then she said the magic words.
"Well, your friend is back in room 6 and he's paying $500 for an hour for you and your girl of choice so go on back."
Score!
So we go back to room 6 and talk about nerdy shit for a while. I dance a little and there's a lot of champagne and shots. The other guy has two girls back in the room with him and he's drunk. I don't even know how much time goes by, but eventually both guys leave and it's the end of the night. I figured I had only been back there an hour (the money is on credit card) so I'm estimating my nightly income to be around $600-$700.
When I go back to the office to collect my cash, low and behold the manager hands me 2hours worth of vip money. YAY! One of my easiest nights ever.
A few hours before my date ga tech kid called. I have hung out with him a few times in the past two weeks and we've talked on the phone quite a bit. I don't know what to make of him. He's very...stoic. I kind of like it because it gives me the chance to be the animated one. I'm hanging out with him tomorrow night.
I don't really have any sort of feelings or chemistry with either of these guys (maybe ga tech kid a little), but I need something to pass the time. I miss the ex.
I made $1,100 at work last night which was nice. I lucked out.
I had sat with little asian man for most of the night and made about $200 off him and then he left.
A few minutes later I was called to stage two.
A nerdy looking dude came up and tipped me on stage two and I made a comment referencing his shirt. He was so thrilled that I knew the meaning behind his shirt that he tipped me a $20 on stage. After my set I went and danced for another guy who had tipped me and then returned to nerd guy. About 2 minutes after I sat down the waitress came over with a bucket and bottle of champagne in hand and asked the guy if he liked me. He responded that he kind of loved me and then she said the magic words.
"Well, your friend is back in room 6 and he's paying $500 for an hour for you and your girl of choice so go on back."
Score!
So we go back to room 6 and talk about nerdy shit for a while. I dance a little and there's a lot of champagne and shots. The other guy has two girls back in the room with him and he's drunk. I don't even know how much time goes by, but eventually both guys leave and it's the end of the night. I figured I had only been back there an hour (the money is on credit card) so I'm estimating my nightly income to be around $600-$700.
When I go back to the office to collect my cash, low and behold the manager hands me 2hours worth of vip money. YAY! One of my easiest nights ever.
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