A good month

So last night broke my awesome streak. I've made over $700 50% of all the nights I've woked this month. Totals for the month: $160, $80, $870, $730, $760, $400, $450, $800, $700, $300. Man, those first two nights really fucked me over. Unfortunately last night was a $300 night. Plus, I needed safe-ride (that thing where they drive your car home for you), which put me out an additional $40. I'm working tonight, so hopefully I won't dip under the 50% line.

I have a new customer who I can tell is going to become obsessed with me. He's actually not too bad, and pays really well, so I hope we can just keep things as they are, and he doesn't start trying to date me.

My bouncer on the other hand...He came in on saturday (as a customer) and tipped me $200 on stage. Both hundred dollar bills. I was complaining to him the other night about guys that make it rain, because while having all that money is nice, it's a pain in the ass to stack and face it. I mentioned how I wished they could just give me a few $100s instead. Of course once I went over to talk to him he started bugging me about going on another date with him. I may or may not have agreed to a date next thursday. God, I think I just let the bouncer 'buy' me.

Ga tech kid still calls and texts a few times a week, and I still ignore him (for the most part).

I love how the less you want someone, the more they want you. Well, except when I'm on the wanting end of that deal.

'til death do us part

I often wonder about the wives of the men I dance for.

Do their wives know what they do in the evenings?

Do their wives know that some 22 year old is shoving her tits in their husband's face and grinding on his erect penis?

Do they know that their husbands are propositioning women to meet them at their hotels when they get off work?

Maybe they're ok with it. Perhaps they're involved in an open marriage. Maybe their wives have men on the side as well. They could be bitter and cold or have neglected their appearance and sex life altogether.

I know this probably isn't the case for most of these women. They probably have no idea. Would they be devastated if they knew?

I used to be angry at men, all men, for what they were doing. That anger has slowly faded to acceptance. I suppose in a similar vein as the stages of grief...even the depression that comes with the reality of what's going on is no longer present.

With that said, I did very well on Wednesday; made over $800. This month has been exceptional thus far.

Thank god for married men and their icequeen wives I suppose.