not much going on

December was a lazy month for me. I'm getting back on top of shit now that it's January.

New Year's eve was alright. Like always my original plans fell through with my 'best' friend, so I spent the evening with my summer roommates and ga tech kid.


Because I haven't been working, I also haven't been drinking. I'm not sure if this has had any effect on me, as it still took a lot of alcohol for me to get drunk last night. I also did a bit of coke with ga tech kid and this other guy. Way to start off the new year.

I find myself not really liking ga tech kid. I mean, I like the company, but the person who provides it is interchangeable. I always feel like I'm acting when I'm around others. Especially men. I start to play this role-a very specific role-that isn't really me. I guess it is me, since I act that way in those moments, but it's not...genuine. I can't even really explain it.

I also feel like I might be a pathological cheater when it comes to relationships. It's not that I have a particularly high sex drive, or am attracted to many people, but as soon as someone I'm dating wants to be exclusive, I get the urge to cheat. Just to do it. I dunno.

I'm considering trying women. Not just for sex, but dating too.

I think I'm going down to biloxi with some friends in the near future so that will be a blast.