Pornography today.

Work last night was pretty easy.

The little asian came in and I sat with him until I chose I leave early at 1:00.

I've gotten into the (bad?) habit of refusing to dance for certain customers. Not customers that I know are dirty or obnoxious, just customers that I don't even know.
I get kind of annoyed when they ask, so I tell them that I'll be over in 5 minutes and then just never go back.

I suppose it's bad business practice and I'm missing out on money but there you have it.

I'm just frustrated with men as a whole right now. Not customers or boyfriends or one specific group of males, but all of them. I'm frustrated by how men talk about and view women.

I honestly feel like a lot of this stems from the porn that's so prevalent today. Seems like most porn today consists of nasty, degrading shit aimed towards the woman. It's not about sex that both partners enjoy, but brutalizing the woman. All that seems to be out there these days is shit like "nasty slut gets ripped apart in every hole.'

I mean seriously?

Is this what men want sex to be like? Is this the male fantasy? Clearly most porn is aimed towards men because let's face it, men are the main consumers of porn. So if this is what's popular is must be because this is what most men want to see.

Nearly all men look at porn, and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Jacking off is natural and having materials to fuel that activity seems fine. It's just the content that's a bit disturbing. I feel like young (and not so young) boys see the porn of today and think that it's ok or normal. That women should be treated as nothing more than fuck holes and whether or not they enjoy it is irrelevant.

I wish men could see girls as something more than something for them to stick their dicks into and realize that they are people with feelings and desires and emotions.

Today it seems that sex isn't something you do with a woman, but something you do to a woman. This mentality disturbs me and causes me to resent men. Oh well.