Welcome back!

So I got my job back last night. Well, I suppose I never really lost it.

After downing 2 shots of Svedka I decided to drive to the club just to make sure I was still allowed to work there. Walking towards the door it seemed like no time had passed at all, when in reality it's been 4 months. When I entered the dressing room the house mom immediately started writing my name down on the dj list.

"Uh, I'm not working tonight, I'm just making sure I still have my job..."

(laughter)"of course you do."

"ok, well I have to get my permit renewed. See you Thursday."

I hardly recognized any of the girls. Hopefully all the girls I know were already out on the floor.

I'm excited and slightly nervous about going back. What if I've forgotten how to make money?

I worked a promo gig today for grey goose. It went fairly well, sort of boring. The pay is $30/hr, which is decent for a 40 hr/week job, but measly for a 4-6 hr/week job.

I called the Ex last night to invite him to sushi with my best friend and her date but he didn't answer. He texted me today asking why I called. I told him it was a last minute invitation and that was that.

Last time we saw each other I ditched him halfway through a movie and told him I didn't want to be fuck buddies. He asked me what I wanted us to be and I told him I wasn't sure.

Is it too forward to tell someone you want to be in a relationship with them? Probably not, but for some reason the thought of telling him this makes me nervous. Maybe it's because our history has been a bit rocky.