Scrabble

So this past Sunday was my first night back in the stripper world. It really is like riding a bike, once you learn you don't forget. Well, I'm actually an avid hater of bikes and am not particularly gifted in the art of bike riding, whereas I can give a mean lap dance.

Sunday was easy as a Sunday should be. I had a customer come in who gave me only $20, which freaked me out because normally I get a few hundred bucks out of him. I think the reason I didn't get my money is because another one of the girls he likes was there and he always goes to vip with her instead of me if she's available. I'm guessing that she's a bit nastier in vip and I'd honestly rather him release his pervert powers on her rather than me.

I did end up having two vips that night so all was not lost.

The first was with this Russian customer who adores me. He's really mean to a lot of the girls and will openly criticize their looks which isn't very nice, but he happens to like me. Most of the girls hate him and warn me about his insulting nature but I've never had a problem. I like Russians. They are somewhat rude and blunt but I prefer that to the other personality types that wander into the titty bar. The Russian was fine in vip. He kept asking the usual questions, but once I made it clear that he wasn't getting anything 'special' from me he chilled out.

My second vip was really chill as well. I don't even think he touched me. He just wanted to do his coke and not be hassled. I didn't partake in any powder snorting because I didn't want to be fucked up so close to closing. He said he's coming back next Sunday, so we'll see. I hope he does-he's my favorite kind of customer.

I did drink a bit much so I was car-less the next day. I have to retrain myself to know when my bac is .08 or lower.

My shoes broke halfway through the night which was annoying. I had to trash them and get some new ones for $70. I don't like the new ones as much...they have those stupid looking ankle straps. I think I'm just going to cut them off.

We had so many new faces. Some pleasant to look at, some not so much. There was one girl who I thought might have been pregnant. When I inquired with the girl next to me she said she's probably just fat. Nice.

I was supposed to work last night but instead hung out with the Ex. We went to dinner which I was late to (when I got there he looked really surprised and said that he didn't think I was going to show-I guess that does tend to be my mo), and then I kicked his ass at scrabble.

It's funny because I know a lot of the guys I date think I'm lacking in the brain matter department but that's not the case. I've just realized it's easier as a woman to act like a flake.

After that we played a few more games (uno, anyone?) and then went to sleep. And by went to sleep I mean had intercourse. It was better than I remember, mostly due to me trying a bit harder. I've realized that I will never associate sex with feelings. I get 0 emotional payoff from it so I might as well work on the technical aspect of it and be the best I can be.

I also realized that I just don't have the same feelings for the Ex that I used to. I suppose I only want him when he's not available which leads me to believe it's less about liking him as a person and more about getting what I want.

I have so many dating options right now I'm just a bit overwhelmed. I'll probably do what I always do and just ignore them all until they go away and then start new. I might even move again.

I'm working tonight and pretty damn apathetic about it.