Hustle

I'm not a hustler. I want to be, but I'm just not there yet.

I want to be one of those girls that goes in knowing she'll leave with at least $500; regardless of the circumstances. I want to be one of those girls who can drain a man of all his money with a few well placed lines and giggles. I want to be one of those girls who knows after 5 seconds of conversation just how much she can get out of her customer.

I am not one of those girls. My money is inconsistent. Sometimes I'm charming and witty, sometimes I'm myself. I waste hours on customers who have nothing. I get nervous before work, unsure if I'll even make enough to pay tip-out. If I do make good money, I'm estatic over it, and then I rationalize missing my next two shifts because of it.

Maybe I'm just not cut out for this job.